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one time, we will say, ugh i dont do nasyid. one day, you will find yourself indulged in such kind of music. half a decade ago, i was sorta against the song, 'umbrella' by Rihanna. just in case you have no  idea how that song sounds like, well id say its quite annoying for a start. apakan ela ela ela eh eh eh! and then there's me, in baju kebaya with an umbrella walking down an aisle in a secondary school drama show, with that song in the background. giving the breakthrough a more dramatic effect. oh yes, who would've thought I'd fall for that song soon after. and then theres nasyid a few years later.

first few exposure by my sister, thinkin i can not  imagine myself indulged in such emo music. i thought, am I expected to cry everytime I listen to this? and then, there's this moment in highschool that I suddently were in tears out of love and missing Rasulullah when someone played a type of selawat on blast in the auditorium. mind you, im not much of a crybaby then. but I guess my soul knows me better, and so when it feels like crying, missing that figure, it didn't let my ego stop this emotion.

and so, my point is... everything needs getting used to. and no matter how skeptical you can be towards something, soon afterwards, or later in your life, you'll find yourself contradicting your own thoughts.